It's funny. This is my third child, but I have found myself more anxious this time than with the others.
Maybe it's because I'm older. Maybe it's because I've read TOO much. Maybe it's because our housing situation is "in limbo" for the time being. Maybe it's because I know I've got to balance homeschooling two girls with an infant. Maybe it's because it's a boy...maybe, maybe, maybe...
I'm not sure why I'm so anxious this time, but I am. I try to not let myself get that way, but I almost can't help it. I've been seeking advice from books, websites, friends, etc. and trying to make myself as knowledgeable as I can before this one arrives. Things that I never even second-guessed with the girls are now making me fret. Things that might happen during labor, immunizations, circumcision, and the list goes on...
I found myself frantic a couple of weeks ago and I asked Joel, "What's a parent supposed to do?" There are "statistics" to support every viewpoint out there from the far left to the far right. How do you know what the right decisions are? I don't want to harm my child by doing something that isn't necessary, but I also don't to decline a "routine" procedure and risk harming my child that way either...
We had both read information from so many different sources that it seemed like it was all running together into a large mass of confusion with conflicting answers. Finally, he recommended that I talk to one of my friends who is both a doctor & a mommy. I brought up my concerns to her, and she gave me her "doctor" opinions as well as her "mommy" opinions. Her advice was helpful, but she finally hit me with a ton of bricks with this simple, yet profound statement...
"Tara, just know that God is going to take care of your little boy no matter what you decide."
This is probably the best advice I've received from anyone during any of my pregnancies! So, thank you, Kristy, for bringing me "back to earth" and reminding me Who is ultimately in control. I was so worried about what might happen, that I almost completely left God out of the miracle of life that He placed inside of me!
So, now with that burden off my back, I have a great picture to share with you of our precious little guy! At my doctor's appointment today she did a quick little 3D ultrasound and got a great picture of his little face! He had his hand rested against his cheek :-) From the picture we got today I think he is going to look very much like his big sisters...they all have the same "pug" little nose :-)
And I have to include a belly picture for my mom!
(24.5 weeks)
And last, but certainly not least, I must include this sweet picture of the best big sisters ever!!! I just think it's too cute not to share.